Loredana about her mental crises: She suffered from panic attacks and loneliness

“DSDS” juror and rapper Loredana (29) has spoken unusually openly about her mental health in the last few years since separating from her ex-husband. The reason for the conversation was her book “When my heart broke”, which will be published in a few days and in which she tells her life story. In the “Spiegel” interview she also commented on “Germany is looking for the superstar”, Dieter Bohlen (70) and the recent expulsion of her jury colleague Pietro Lombardi (32).

After the official separation from her husband, the Kosovo rapper Mozzik (29), in 2019, she experienced several mental crises and suffered from great heartbreak: “My marriage was broken and my life was fucked, at least that’s what I thought. Then I “I only realized how afraid I was of being alone. I was completely emotionally dependent,” Loredana looks back. At the time of the separation, the rapper was already a mother – her daughter Hana was born in 2018.

She always knew that she wanted to become a mother early. “I wanted to have enough time to have more children. Unfortunately that didn’t work out. I would have liked to have had three by now,” said the 29-year-old. However, with the birth of her daughter, her private and professional relationship with her ex-partner broke down. “We suddenly had different interests. I wanted to stay with the little one, take care of him, not travel so much anymore. He continued to live the rapper lifestyle like he did before he was born.”

Looking back, she reports that the end of her marriage destroyed something in her. In addition, her father had died a few months earlier. “There were 1,000 negative thoughts, self-doubts and questions inside me that built up to panic.” In her new book, however, she tells her story from the “position of a happy woman who has overcome a crisis.”

At that time, she didn’t want to accept any help – not even from her family. The loneliness caused the panic attacks that she had had since she was eight years old to return. Loredana is now happily in a relationship with BVB footballer Karim Adeyemi (22) and lives with him near Dortmund.

In the interview, the musician emphasizes that she is very homely, doesn’t drink alcohol and doesn’t go out partying. She also did not take part in the after-show party after the “DSDS” finale on November 9th. “I only like parties if there is an occasion,” says Loredana. The TV casting show was simply her work for a year – “I don’t celebrate that,” she explains. “My father wouldn’t have celebrated it if he spent a year at the factory.”

Through her work as a juror, she grew and learned a lot. She got along well with chief juror Dieter Bohlen: “He’s a cool guy and showed me that he appreciates me. I just found him a little too nice to the candidates this season. I hope he’ll be like that again earlier.”

In the interview, she also commented on the scandal surrounding her jury colleague Pietro Lombardi, who had previously dubbed Loredana the “most loyal woman in Germany” on social media. “I was there for him when he had his scandal, I also had a lot of contact with his fiancée and gave them both good advice,” reveals Loredana. “I wanted to convey. (…) I was reminded that I was once subjected to severe hostility in public.”

After a heated argument between Lombardi and his fiancée Laura Maria Rypa, which even led to a police operation at the beginning of October, there were numerous headlines about the singer. The question soon arose as to whether he would be replaced as a juror on “DSDS”. Finally, it was clear that he would actually not be seen again in the next season.

will be released on November 16th. She rose to fame in 2018 with her YouTube hit “Sunglasses.” Her single “Kein Plan” reached number one in the German single charts in September 2019.